Quite frankly, I'm fed up already 
Years ago, I asked Pokerstars to stop me playing on a temporary basis because I was going through a rough time with gambling issues, or the potential to get bad anyway.
I've found out since trying to get back on that that now means that I'm never allowed on Pokerstars again, as long as I live!
Since as Pokerstars is the biggest site, and also allows HUD's, that really screws up my options where poker is concerned.
I really want to play SNG's but the problem is that I can't get the volume that I want because on 888 in particular, the SNG's fill up really really slowly (I'm playing 9 seated). I don't want to play 6 max because I feel like to play 6 max well, I have to be a maniac.
A few of my friends have said to play Partypoker or GGPoker but neither allow HUD's and they are vital for multi-tabling.
I really don't know if I want to go into cash games proper. Poker coaching at micro stakes is so expensive and it seems like nobody is offering affordable coaching at the moment (I messaged laa5i and no reply).
I'm a week in and really don't know what to do. I need something in my life that I can compete in, and see growth. I just wish I could play the SNG's I want at the frequency I want.
Sorry for the rant I'll finish it by saying, Pokerstars are hypocrites. They block somebody who does the decent thing by asking for an exclusion (I didn't realise it was permanent!!), yet they have people who clearly have problems gambling yet they're okay to continue. It's complete bull****
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