A life of downswing!!!!

$100/$200 Ante $25 No Limit Holdem
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5 Players
Hand Conversion Powered by weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($465) 2bb
CO ($4,915) 25bb
Hero (BTN) ($3,550) 18bb
SB ($2,795) 14bb
BB ($1,775) 9bb

Pre-Flop: ($425, 5 players) Hero is BTN A♥ 8♥
2 folds, Hero raises to $420, SB calls $320, BB calls $220

Flop: J♦ A♦ 3♠ ($1,385, 3 players)
SB checks, BB checks, Hero bets $400, SB calls $400, BB folds

Turn: 2♥ ($2,185, 2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $600, SB calls $600

River: Q♣ ($3,385, 2 players)
SB bets $1,000, Hero folds

Final Pot: $4,385

SB wins $4,385 (net +$1,940)

BB lost $445
Hero lost $1,445

Villain is a fish he plays 52/17, bb is 19/7
He min re raised when he had TT so i guess this is the line he follows with his monsters
I bet the flop small to induce all the worse hands to shove over me as i think the only hands i fear are A9 AT A3 and fishes tend to be spewy with flush draws second pair decent kickers or maybe even QT KT here
River is pretty bad which completes two pairs and staights. Still i think there are some hands that i beat but i think that they would have check behind and wait for me to bet

Any thoughts are appreciated

I played some kos in the beginning and i runned horrible, so i decided to drop it entirely because i run 120 bis bellow ev in these lifetime and i can sustain of this run to be continued at the moment. If i had bigger bankroll i would add them

The only negative thing is that even in pick hours i couldnt sustain playing 20 tables for long period. This happened because now i grind only turbo format the tables are opening much slower and the traffic isnt the best

Anyway i will grind for now only turbos even if i know that it will be a reg festival. I cant grind only kos because the traffic is even worse and in off pick hours the tables dont run as i would like

Normal turbos:

Bounties:

Hf

Ok as i understand i am unwanted here from most member so i will make it easy for you and i will leave. I hope you are happy this way

Just keep in mind these facts

1) I cant accept the fact that most people accuse me of stealing the money of backers. As i say and it was proved by pokerstars i didnt withdraw any of the money. Yes i mismanaged. Yes it was bad behaviour. Yes it was horrible. Yes i am prick that i lost the money that way

2) My itention wasnt ever ever to loose the money playing heads up. I just started playing one night and i felt addicted. This is the total honest position for me. I critise this. I think it was bad

3) When i trully understood i had repay i instantly contact with Max. I told him to help me gather all the backers and i will instantly start paying back. I even told Ingrid i dont mind if he keeps my account banned because i will understand them

4) I had two staking deals before the incident happens which you can find them in my old feedback thread. Both people where happy

5) I had one coaching for profit deal with abarone68 after the accident. The deal was to pay him and share of my winnings after 3k games. As he can assure you he had no problem when i finished the games. I sent him instantly the money

6) I have been staked two times after that situation. One time by Faarcyde/Braminc, when i figured that my HEM didnt calculate correctly the bounties, i told them because i wanted to be honest with them. It wasnt for 3$ but it was more than 30-40$ every day

After them i have been staked from Quadchrazs for 1.5k $ and when he learnt what happened with the previous backers he told me that he like to close the deal. I instantly sent him back the 1.5k as he confirmed in my 2+2 thread

Taking into consideration all these facts i cant accept three things:

- Accuse me that i stole the money
- Accuse me that i am a scammer
- Present me like i run a company that scam people like Lessthanthree did. When gekitsios scams in picks etc....i dont remember correctly how he described me. This was very bad behaviour from him because he accused me with something totally false

All the information can be proved when you talk to these people i mention

I will never post here again. I will payback as i promised the backers because i know i made a mistake. You didnt done any mistakes in your life? At least i wasnt a pussy and i said i will fix my mistakes

I hope every little person who judged me without knowing the full story and attacked me so bad to have the same behaviour from the others when he makes one mistake

I guess Max will inform you in my feedback thread for the payments i sent but this is the last time i post here

Gl

Sorry to see you go at least you are making amends.
Most of the keyboard warriors that have flamed you have not got the backbone that you have.
Best of luck and if you want to PM me you are more than welcome, I for one would like to know how you get on.
Best of luck (on and off the tables!!)

Mark

Originally posted by belthazorrrr
I will never post here again. I will payback as i promised the backers because i know i made a mistake. You didnt done any mistakes in your life? At least i wasnt a pussy and i said i will fix my mistakes

I hope every little person who judged me without knowing the full story and attacked me so bad to have the same behaviour from the others when he makes one mistake

Hi belthazorrrr,

I am sorry that you have decided not to post here anymore.

I have been following your progress with interest, and I truly admire how you came back from a defeat and turned it around.

It is hard enough to admit a mistake.
It is harder still to make amends for it.
It is especially hard in the face of opposition, accusation, and attack.

If you do decide to follow through and not post here again, I can't help feeling that they've won.

So I hope you do continue.

To all of those who have posted attack posts, please take a moment to read our forum principles before you make another derogatory post.

If you do not believe that he has turned his life around, then having said so, leave it at that. If you haven't said so, there is nothing to be gained by further flaming.

Best Regards,
--VS

Originally posted by belthazorrrr
$100/$200 Ante $25 No Limit Holdem
HoldemManager
5 Players
Hand Conversion Powered by weaktight.com

Stacks:
UTG ($465) 2bb
CO ($4,915) 25bb
Hero (BTN) ($3,550) 18bb
SB ($2,795) 14bb
BB ($1,775) 9bb

Pre-Flop: ($425, 5 players) Hero is BTN A♥ 8♥
2 folds, Hero raises to $420, SB calls $320, BB calls $220

Flop: J♦ A♦ 3♠ ($1,385, 3 players)
SB checks, BB checks, Hero bets $400, SB calls $400, BB folds

Turn: 2♥ ($2,185, 2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $600, SB calls $600

River: Q♣ ($3,385, 2 players)
SB bets $1,000, Hero folds

Final Pot: $4,385

SB wins $4,385 (net +$1,940)

BB lost $445
Hero lost $1,445

Villain is a fish he plays 52/17, bb is 19/7
He min re raised when he had TT so i guess this is the line he follows with his monsters
I bet the flop small to induce all the worse hands to shove over me as i think the only hands i fear are A9 AT A3 and fishes tend to be spewy with flush draws second pair decent kickers or maybe even QT KT here
River is pretty bad which completes two pairs and staights. Still i think there are some hands that i beat but i think that they would have check behind and wait for me to bet

Any thoughts are appreciated

You only had to call $1000 into a $4385 pot, calling wouldn't have been bad with those odds, but then again, if as you said you had the read this is how villain is playing his monsters, then folding wasn't bad, despite the not too bad odds he gives you to call. Then again I play NL5 so I'm not too qualified to give you advice on NL200 hands.

i really enjoy reading your blog and it would be sad to see u giving up posting just because some guys got on your nerves.

i think keeping this blog alive and doing it with fun despite some people who dislike you, would just improve your personality. if all of this is for growing as a person and poker player (which is usually the same), then i strongly suggest you to keep going through and face the hard part too not just avoid it by moving away. there are ppl who support you too...

dont forget that you are setting here an example for many ppl who have screw their backers. fixing this doesnt mean just giving back the money you owe, but also face the shit ppl will throw at you!

any way, whish u all the best!

Originally posted by vuciitis
i really enjoy reading your blog and it would be sad to see u giving up posting just because some guys got on your nerves.

i think keeping this blog alive and doing it with fun despite some people who dislike you, would just improve your personality. if all of this is for growing as a person and poker player (which is usually the same), then i strongly suggest you to keep going through and face the hard part too not just avoid it by moving away. there are ppl who support you too...

dont forget that you are setting here an example for many ppl who have screw their backers. fixing this doesnt mean just giving back the money you owe, but also face the shit ppl will throw at you!

any way, whish u all the best!

This. Maintaining this blog is part of your rehabilitation, because it shows you want to be accepted again by the community. But acceptance won't happen overnight. You have to earn it with your actions and your words. Don't expect everyone to like you (this is impossible even for people who did nothing 'wrong'). Just work each day to earn back a little bit more respect, bit by bit.

Originally posted by belthazorrrr
I will never post here again. I will payback as i promised the backers because i know i made a mistake. You didnt done any mistakes in your life? At least i wasnt a pussy and i said i will fix my mistakes

I hope every little person who judged me without knowing the full story and attacked me so bad to have the same behaviour from the others when he makes one mistake

I guess Max will inform you in my feedback thread for the payments i sent but this is the last time i post here

Gl

That really sucks dude!

There'll always be a few idiots but if you re-read the blog you'll that there are even more people who are following and supporting you!

I do hope you start blogging again. Already since your post the community has come out to support and encourage you to do so.

In case you decide not to you have set a really good example for others and I wish you all the best.

Originally posted by Tim64
Maintaining this blog is part of your rehabilitation, because it shows you want to be accepted again by the community. But acceptance won't happen overnight. You have to earn it with your actions and your words. Don't expect everyone to like you (this is impossible even for people who did nothing 'wrong'). Just work each day to earn back a little bit more respect, bit by bit.

+1

You are showing with the fast repayments that you are on the right track and everyone sees that. Keep going!

Originally posted by Tim64
This. Maintaining this blog is part of your rehabilitation, because it shows you want to be accepted again by the community. But acceptance won't happen overnight. You have to earn it with your actions and your words. Don't expect everyone to like you (this is impossible even for people who did nothing 'wrong'). Just work each day to earn back a little bit more respect, bit by bit.

+2

Interesting video regarding integrity, it shows even the best of players have had to learn harsh lessons at some point during their poker career

LEARN from your mistake, that is the most important thing.

Also I have enjoyed reading your blog, has been interesting

Thanks everyone that took from his time to post. Yeah i see your point. I will make an update when my two last tables are busted ♦

Originally posted by belthazorrrr
Thanks everyone that took from his time to post. Yeah i see your point. I will make an update when my two last tables are busted ♦

Good to see you back!

Hey guys

Rick, the video with Negreanu is amazing

Today was a meh day. I played two hours hyper turbos but after an hour i saw how reggy were. I runned meh, i played meh. I dont know the format so obviously i cant judge my game if it was good or bad. Especially when we are talking about really thin edges

In the night i decide to play 9m turbos. The regular ones where so reggy. Man 6 regs in each table. I decide to play the kos. Again i runned meh but i was playing good. I made good decisions and i followed many anorthodox lines

The problem is that the traffic is bad. I dont want to mix 7$ but i couldnt have more than 15 tables for longer than 15 mins. Generally this day close with a happiness. I watched two videos. I need to bump up my roi to at least 6% no matter how i run. My plan is to break down the stages of sngs and work each one individually mainly in 2-3-4 handed and then in earlier stages

Even if you are the best in the world in your limit ( i am not for sure), there is always room to tweak things and improve. Even a 0.3% roi improvement is a huge difference in the end of the year

I see people who behaved me bad whining about 20-50-100 bis downswings. Even for them i hope they dont meet my legendary 320+ bis swing in more than 12k sample. I could advice them, i could suggest them videos or ways to confront better these swings. At least these things helped me. I was to be a monkey when i was playing poker but now i can control my feelings 80% of the time

Gl

Nice blog
And at Rick awesome vid for the man.

Cheers
Mark

Hi belthazorrrr,

I just found your blog and i will definitely follow. We met at the tables few times, coz i try to move from 7$KO to 15$KO, meybe you noticed

Sooo, GL at the tables.
Mattusko.

Nice to have you back, keep plugging away!

Mal.

Originally posted by Mark1790
Nice blog
And at Rick awesome vid for the man.

Cheers
Mark

thanks

Originally posted by mattusko
Hi belthazorrrr,

I just found your blog and i will definitely follow. We met at the tables few times, coz i try to move from 7$KO to 15$KO, meybe you noticed

Sooo, GL at the tables.
Mattusko.

I barely remember you tbh. I think we havent play more than 8-10 sngs together. Do I remember wrong?

Originally posted by gadget51
Nice to have you back, keep plugging away!

Mal.

Thanks. A lot ♠_love:

I barely remember you tbh. I think we havent play more than 8-10 sngs together. Do I remember wrong?

Yep, thats right, but i think(i hope) this number will grow up quickly

KOs are really easy imo so you can move up quickly