AAAAAAAARGH Not FOCUSED

/quit
/unistall
/cold shower
I dont care about results but I played so bad that I deserve to lose 2 buyins or sth like that, jesus I am a fisch.
It started out like this, I cant complain about this:
No-Limit Hold'em, $0.50 BB (6 handed) - Hold'em Manager Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com
saw flop | saw showdown
SB ($12.05)
BB ($31.10)
UTG ($51.60)
Gerv (MP) ($55.15)
CO ($174.65)
Button ($52.85)
Preflop: Gerv is MP with A♥, A♠
1 fold, Gerv bets $1.75, 2 folds, SB calls $1.50, BB calls $1.25
Flop: ($5.25) 3♠, 4♠, 7♦ (3 players)
SB checks, BB checks, Gerv bets $3.50, 1 fold, BB raises $7, Gerv calls $3.50
Turn: ($19.25) T♠ (2 players)
BB bets $7.50, Gerv calls $7.50
River: ($34.25) 6♠ (2 players)
BB bets $14.85 (All-In), Gerv calls $14.85
Total pot: $63.95
Main pot: $63.95 between BB and Gerv, won by Gerv
Results:
BB had J♦, 2♦ (high card, Jack).
Gerv had A♥, A♠ (flush, Ace high).
Outcome: Gerv won $60.95
And then FUFUFUFUUFF Gerv in Durrrrrrrrrrrrrrrland doing some stupid FPS moves as if he is TwiceT dancing on the music I like to move it move it
$0.25/$0.50 No Limit Holdem
6 Players
Hand Conversion Powered by weaktight.com
Stacks:
UTG ($24.55)
UTG+1 ($50)
CO ($63.60)
BTN ($53.05)
Gerv ($50)
BB ($50)
Pre-Flop: ($0.75, 6 players) Gerv is SB 5♥ 7♥
3 folds, BTN raises to $1.50, Gerv raises to $5.50, 1 fold, BTN calls $4
Flop: K♣ 8♣ 8♦ ($11.50, 2 players)
Gerv bets $4, BTN calls $4
Turn: J♣ ($19.50, 2 players)
Gerv bets $8, BTN calls $8
River: 4♦ ($35.50, 2 players)
Gerv checks, BTN checks
Final Pot: $35.50
BTN shows
K♠ A♣
Gerv shows
5♥ 7♥
BTN wins $33.80 (net +$16.30)
Gerv lost $17.50
No plan, no good result, no positive expectations.
This guy had fold to 3bet of 80% and he pretty much called these bets pretty quickly.
Aargh I'm just going to steam off right now.. so bad.