no money no honey

So maybe its time to fuck off from here and say good bye

No no no , need to talk about cold techniques and breathing importance of them and why the GTO coaching is garbage but that will be next post

Poker and perceptions of poker have went to wrong direction for very long time

GTO = being in an equilibrium of two super computers having solved a game-tree and looking into a certain node

The GTO coaches "acting as they know" the results of that exact node and "RNGing" their decissions is complete bullshit because the other dude is not a super computer he is a real human player

Thinking these guys have any real results?

Obviously not happening because their whole coaching thing is based on a scam they know nothing

This brainfart having got so far in this industry really shocks me , makes me see humans are fucking retards on average

I use a few abusive words but what needs to be said needs to be said , truth will only set us free .

Getting to grind anyways doing the work!!

just gonna do the work , no money no honey, ask your coach does he do the work dooes he win or does he just talk bollox??? as they say in UK

thats my message gl all poker enthusiasts

I fixed the pictures and youtube movie for you on the first page of you're blog.

Thank you SDK1987

This is a forum I started ask questions of poker long time ago and I got very good answers

the value of Pokerstrategy.com always is something I respect / am surprised of

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This week where there is no rb :

Where I get rb :

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Not sure of the graphs pointing much anything . PT4 tracks it all wrong with site I play a lot on. There I score my first -5k month this year , yet am +31.5k on profits ,PT 4 shows me something very different .

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I haven't really given it a lot of thought . PT4 showing random numbers in terms of results .

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practically speaking winning everywhere as a professional is supposed to but thinking what is the point of proving it .

I'm supposed to think of higher achievements rather than proving anything .

I have really thought of those

Cant really post , too personal

Not to say bad stretches do happen but high volume + high rb it happens lot less if being on that track

So to think my PT4 says Im 7,4k usd down this month , checking on sites being -5k euros .

Something is not working properly with PT4 anyways .

So what was this month -5k euro , -700 dollars (GG poker attempt) rake not worth it , + 1134euro + 304 usd rb weekly

So monthly speaking : - 5900 + 1400

= -4500 Euro

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tracked sites this month w low rb

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w high rb .

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very rare bad run month on no rb site

bad run and poor action month , not leaving lot to speculate , dont know really how much lost but worked really hard

So lost trying do my own accounting . Maybe best to just not do it only post from where you win as most people do .

Ooops .. did I reveal the truth ,,,

Originally posted by tukioppilas62
So lost trying do my own accounting . Maybe best to just not do it only post from where you win as most people do .

Ooops .. did I reveal the truth ,,,

BAD EXCUSE IM SUPPOSED TO KNOW HOW MUCH MONEY WAS MADE / LOST

its the truth . I was doing the fish thing most players do , moving between sites when not running good at one site .

Then looking at results confusing my own self trying to make some losses forgettable or something .

Less sites you play the better and if run bad then best suck it up

GG not worth really playing unless being top 5% reg at your game and putting top volume in

you know bros I tell the truth of GG and everything , not many people do .

So I look at what 33k + this year and my net worth has moved for +3k max

I spend way too much , also sometimes blast on roulette , playing martingale strategy (my latest hobby)

Need to get my things together stop all -ev gambling

Said when drunk I see someone as retard and wasn't censored / banned thinking its forum of the year batch

And I do see myself often as a retard

Its really something to work on ...

I guess I have some sort of mental limit of 3k on annual -ev gambling but over time it gets being really lots of money

This is about everything , things do compound

Also money saved and invested do compound , so the price of being careless is actually bigger than like the initial loss

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But this ofc. brings to question life lived or life saved money for later?

Gambling surely gives nothing for a professional player

Can be something to just stop for life and never look back , save lots of money

Other decisions / things being still more important , really being the core

Like working at own standards being it wife / family / friends ,

I have went through lots of soul searching seeing how things are , looking at stuff from eye to eye

thinking am I not enough strong to do this shit alone etc. Am I not strong enough to not care of my "friends" .

Basically all of this I have done and it lead to wiping off nearly everyone my life

Vast majority of people in family / friends did not want my success / best for me and I believe this is human nature

Depending on family dynamics etc . of course

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Have to protect own dreams , protect ourselves , stay strong , keep working .

I keep getting drunk frequently which counts me as an alcoholic and I dont really like seeing myself as one

But probably I have to

I think many of us alcoholics care a lot and try work hard to compensate for the sickness

But that just does not make any sense either .

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I need to find a way to heal .