vonki - The return of the Queen

My morning routine consists of start a crazy rush to get to school in time once the alarm clock rings. I wouldn't recommend it though ♦

More seriously, I start by making myself a cup of tea when I get back home, and doing something to separate myself from the stress of the early morning (like feeding the guinea pigs, etc.) I am seriously thinking about adding a morning run as I am in terrible shape, but I need to measure my time carefully as it is tight.

Anyway, after I cooled down from the morning rush, I sit down and go through some hands posted in the hand evaluation forum. I post my opinion trying my best to imagine myself in that situation. That helps a lot to start wearing my poker mindset. And I check-in with my poker buddy on Skype

I usually spend some time reviewing hands from previous sessions. As for the mental side of it - listening to the right music helps a lot. Before the session though, too distracting when i play. Oh, and chocolate. Chocolate is the nutz. Even better if it contains nuts. Whole nuts, not draws to the nuts.

Thanks for your input guys (and gal )

My faith in myself as a pokerplayer was restored after yesterday. I'd been wanting to put in quite a bit of volume this weekend and I managed to pull 9.5 hours of poker yesterday I'd originally planned to play ~15 hours over fri-sun but I'm gonna try to push myself as far as I feel I can go without turning it into -EV play.

Too bad fathers day gets in the way of some of it on sunday (Yes, I am evil! ♦ )

Strangely lookin forward to my nap already

Ended up putting in 7.5 hours on saturday but none on sunday ♦ Was so exhausted I fell asleep watching a series when I came back from celebrating my father

I am slowly finding my way back to the pokerplayer I used to be. The feelings of distress and doubts that have flooded my mind the last couple of months are vanishing more and more day by day. I'm finding back my inner strenght and mindset for every session I play.

Because I find myself WAY too curious to check my results lately (flawed mindset) I've decided I'm not even gonna go to the sessiontab to check my hours played. Instead I'm going to keep track of points collected (and they should add up to 80+ hours in the end). This way I have no reason to touch HEM during/just after (which is when this urge appears) at all other than starting the import.

Currently: 635/2000

So half way through the month but behind on pace. Making the 2000 points will push me beyond the 80 hours but I'm planning on increasing my volume anyway

Speaking of which, lets start another session!! paw paw!

xoxo

Made a small calculation to find out what pace I need to put myself on to hit the target...

Days remaining: 16 (including today since my "day" isnt over yet nor did I count the points I made today)

Points remaining: 1365

Avg points/day needed: 85

Have made a rough count of how many hours I have/will play today so I can make an even rougher estimation of how many hours it will take ♦

I've estimated 4h of playing today (slightly more probably) and I've gathered 106 points in that time. That means, 26,5 points/hour. If I count at 25 points/hour, that means it should take me another ~50 hours to hit my target. I dont recall exactly how much I've played thus far this month but if I calculate based on guesses it puts me on a total of 75,5 hours (+ the hours I've spent on MTT's). Not quite what I thought... my guess, i messed some calculation up along the way ♦

Not sure what to now Don't wanna look at the sessions tab until the end of the month, and dont wanna look at any results til then either.

But if I play ~4(or 5 whenever I can push myself) hours 3 days a week and 5 hours 3 days a week til the end of the month then I'd end up on an estimated 84,5 hours + the MTT hours putting me at ~90 hours which I guess will have to do. ♦ Can always try to hit the 100 mark

Think I will guide my mom through looking at my session tab on sunday to make sure I am not waaaay off track ♦ ♦ my mom

Urgh. Sorry about the late night calculation rant.

Time to get me some well deserved sleepy time now Workout + lots of poker to follow again tomorrow

^^
Just be careful that your mom does not become sessions tab orientated.
♦

Kudos on not looking at the your results.I have hard time at not looking during session.

Originally posted by Tim64
^^
Just be careful that your mom does not become sessions tab orientated.
♦

hahah, my mom is probably less session/results oriented than like 90% of the pokerplayers out there. ♦ I try to make sure she understands very clear that when I say I've had a $1k day or something she knows its not like that every day ^^ besides, I got my brains from her, she actually understands quite a bit about poker my stephfather on the other hand...

haha thnx thazar, I dont always feel like not looking though... ♦ I find myself so curious lately, and a few times early on I did check, but ive decided im going to stay strong!

Hey Vonki!
Do you feel like it affects you/your play when you check your results?

I haven't checked my results/bankroll since mid September and it's the best decision I've ever made. Keep it up!

oh, and HI!

Originally posted by opal99
I haven't checked my results/bankroll since mid September and it's the best decision I've ever made. Keep it up!

oh, and HI!

opaaaaaaaal!!!! OMG you're alive!! and blackmember

How are you dear old friend?

Originally posted by Dublimax
Hey Vonki!
Do you feel like it affects you/your play when you check your results?

Hmm, its a tricky question because if I say no, I believe I'd be lying. But I'm also not sure to what extent it actually affects my GAME, since I usually have the self control to only check AFTER a session if I feel like I really really have to.

And... I usually feel like 90% of the time I feel curious to look is when I am on the edge of tilting Hence why I usually stop the session and then look... but I'd say, looking may well be the thing to push me over the edge and actually puts me on tilt.

For me I think the biggest problem I have with checking is that it opens up for resultsorientedness (is that a word lol?). Say I've played a 4-5 hour session, at which point I usually get a little emotional afterwards... and I take a look and see that in the last few hundred hands all the profits I made earlier during the night/day were vanished, it opens up for a billion thoughts going through my head; most of which arent good. My brain, in a frustrated mode, starts counting all the setups, all the lost flips etc.

Because I usually play last thing I do before I go to sleep, some of those thoughts will keep me from just being able to relaxe, shake it off and go to sleep. It'll sometimes take quite a bit of extra energy for me to get back into a good mindset, and it'll also take energy to have all those thoughts running around in my head... not to mention I sometimes have to use extra energy to motivate myself to play the next day.

Now, if I simply dont check, I can spare myself all that energy and all those negative thoughts from entering my head. I'll just be able to think "meh, didnt feel like such a good session today... tomorrow is a new day!" and be done with it.

Even if I check just once a week (or as in this case, once in 2-3 weeks)... there's no way I'm gonna remember all those setups, lost flips etc to the same extent I'll be able to see the big picture, which in the end is really all that counts, as we all know.

There's probably more to it, but thats all I could think of right now

Also for all the graph/hand junkies, here's a hand from yesterday (ignore the $1500, its in SEK so more like ~NL70 worth.. but they are all deep tables and with these deep spazzfish all over the place its better than NL100!! )

Stacks:
Hero (UTG) ($1,534.51) 307bb
UTG+1 ($901.86) 180bb
CO ($429.54) 86bb
BTN ($857.13) 171bb
SB ($727.33) 145bb
BB ($1,075.96) 215bb

Pre-Flop: (7.50bb, 6 players) Hero is UTG A♣ A♥
Hero raises to 3,5bb, 2 folds, BTN calls 3,5bb, 1 fold, BB raises to 6bb, Hero raises to 30bb, BTN folds, BB calls 24bb

Flop: 8♠ 4♠ K♥ (64bb, 2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets 33bb, BB goes all-in 193bb, Hero calls

Turn: 8♣ (430bb, 2 players, 1 all-in)

River: 5♣ (430bb, 2 players, 1 all-in)

Final Pot: 430bb
BB shows
10:club: 10:spade:
Hero shows
A♣ A♥

hardcore grindster, now with a headache! prrrr...

quick update before I sneak down in bed for some cozytime

Today: 125
Current points: 866/2000

pretty boring day at the office, not much action and pretty carddead most of the time... just craving sleeeeeepepepepepepepep

@ looking at results. yeah it is tricky but I think your post sum it up pretty well.
I guess everyone has to find his/her own way about this. But with comfortable BR not looking is the way to go I suppose

GL!

Hail the queen of pokah!

I decided to send you a musicvideo instead of talking about my feelings for you

Yours
Future Man

hahah but hey Vonki! Make the " become " !

the only few times im leaving the swedish forum is when I'm going to read your blog, keep it up!

hahahah holman you sillypop

but to be fair, my blog is well worth leaving the swedish forums for!

I was forced to take an invoulantary day off from poker yesterday. Lets not go into detail on why, as I've been told by the guys on skype they get weirded out (or even grossed out) when I share too much details about my girlyproblems

My mom also checked my hours just now (hahah ) and Ive played 33.5 hours, means I gotta keep up a good pace ♦ She's for the record not resultsoriented either! I asked her "i'm not down, right?" and she said "no... but I also forgot how much you've won already"

So maybe if I manage to put in a 3h + 5h session today I can still get 2 days off before the end of the month Lets gogo! Grindmode back ON!

xoxo

ive come down with the flue bigtime... bedrest for me for a couple of days

any good movie tips? genre doesnt matter so much