Hi, my name is Robert and i have a short story that i would like to share with you, a lot of you might know all this and had this kind of "revelation" but it's always good to remember, others might hear this and think about it for the first time.
I`m still a micro player, i don't have a ton of experience, i have @300k hands of cash games only(100k nl10), i started with the pokerstrategy capital of 50$ at nl2 FullTilt and over time i managed to make a profit of over 1100$... to some of you that might seem very little, it may be that's not important for me right now because poker it's not all about intelligence, or talent it's about much more... your speed of progress will be influenced by your personality, your discipline and by more than anything else your psychology!
Right now i find my self at a "difficult" point of my poker "career", and i hate my self for getting my self into this situation... some of you know that in this life the key element for happiness is progress, i stoped progressing... and it's not because of bad beats, it's not because i`ve been running bad, not because i`m not willing to put the time in, to work on my game and become better, but it's because of my psychology. Some of you heard this a million times, but from my point of view one of the biggest mistakes is to associate poker with making money. As long as you are playing poker just to try to make money(for booze, for pizza, for a trip, for a car) it's most likely you won`t make it. If you say "I`m thinking in BI`s, i don't care about the money"... are you sure your are 100% honest to your self?
You see my incorrect point of view on poker had a huge impact on my game, and set major set backs in my progress... i don't want you to make the same mistake as i did... it's not enough to say "i don't care about the money", you most have a different approach to poker, you have to completely focus on becoming better - this is something i knew but never really understood how to do. Even if you don't care in the first stage about the actual money, you`ll care about losing, you`ll get frustrated then you`re going to lose some more... and it's not because of the variance(even if you`re on a downswing you`re most likely losing more than you should), not because you`re a bad player, or because you`re not smart enough, or you`re not talented enough, but because you`re not focusing on the right thing. You focus on a bigger bankroll, more money and on wining instead of focusing on your growth as a player. You want to see results, and you want to see them now... ok i had a bad day but i want to see them tomorrow... ok,i had a bad week but i have to see the positive results at the end of the month - WRONG! You`re not looking for the right stuff, not looking in the right direction an completely focusing on the wrong thing by expecting financial results. Don't get me wrong, you most keep an eye on your bankroll so you move up and down the limits as your own BRM rules, but don't look in your bankroll for results but feel them, when you`ll feel them most likely your bankroll is going to tell you the same thing - "you`re growing man!", sometimes it will take a while until it does but as long as you improve and just focus on getting better your bankroll will follow.
In conclusion what i wanted to tell you with this whole long post is: don't think about the profit, and never ever ever ever ever let your self think at any given moment at the poker table - I MOST WIN!(because of the money, because of my reputation, because i just HAVE to win, or whatever else would be your reason) because this will lead to bad decisions witch can lead to tilt witch will give you serious problems in going up in limits and improving your self as a poker player.I hope i stressed enough on this "FOCUS" thing, and it will help you save a lot of your time. Remind your self every time you sit down at the tables, what do you have to focus on and what are you after - making better decisions, learning from mistakes and becoming better.
I wish you all the best!